horizon

I feel as if something great is on the horizon. I feel a pressure of sorts in my heart, mind and soul. I am praying earnestly that God would reveal to me what that is before it drives me batty :) Maybe i am experiencing a mid life crisis. I dont really know, there are so many things that i want to do and experience, im just waiting for God to give me a little shove in the direction I should go.. Oh how i love those shoves. The person you run into randomly that give you encouragement or the opportunity that presents itself when you least expect it.
I see the innocence on the faces of my children, the potential. Am i looking at the next president of the United States, maybe, but want I want most is for my children to realize their dreams, do what they love and love others in the process. Happiness is relative, I just have a hard time not comparing my happiness with that of others. It is true that you are only as happy as you choose to be. I feel as if I am treading water, keeping afloat. Dont get me wrong, I am completely and totally blessed by a loving and perfect God. I guess I am just impatient, I am tired of feeling as if beauty is just around the corner. It is great to know it is but i feel as if, like i said already, I am waiting for something.